TRANCE, third episode.

Now I know who I am.



Earlier I was taught acceptance
As I was also trained to question 
And even learned to rebel

But they refused me faith
And so my search began my beloved
Yet where to find you

Hence I read the books
And I argued as I reasoned alone
For who was my equal

As I scrutinized the mirror
That you showed me by your lore
Of love and sublime oneness

To be naked to all
Wearing the emperor's clothes I was
Nothing less than a child

Yet where to find you
Not in the image in my eyes
It was bare utterly barren

Maybe for those who seek
You can not be found in time
So I ended my search

And that stop worried you 
While I materialized in this earthly maze
My empyrean spirit flew out 

I was out of reach 
Even unaproachable to me I whirled paralyzed
Through lawlessness and inner disarray

In a world of mortals
Craving for wealth for desire for prestige
They not I not me

You taught me to laugh
To make jest of myself and them
Yet where to find me

I could only be found
In you as you searched for me
You had to look inside

That increscent universe of creation
You started to close your holy solitude 
Where I was at nascency

So why my eternal master
Am I earthborn as well as ethereal
Subordinate while equal and particle

Like a drop of ocean
I can not exist without my source
As you not without me

You showed me your heaven
And then threw me back to life
Knowing it would kill me

Since you taught me acceptance
My master my heavenly destroyer my beloved
I only revolt against me

As somewhere in this trance
My quest ended into a tender wake

Life more sore than death

Except, except for her and
You, you who keep whispering my name
In longing for my return.








Dawn.